Mijn Maria Magdalena

Ik zou het erg vinden wanneer een bruut haar haakt. Ze doet me denken aan de mooie vleugel die je in de heerlijkste klanken vertolkte, nog welsprekender dan je armzalig kunnen.

Ik zou het erg vinden wanneer ze “verkocht” bij de een of andere rijke, grote … in handen komt, die haar reine toetsen betasten of behameren zonder enig gevoel.

Als ik ooit dominee word, word ik vrouwen dominee, zittend met Maria Magdalena aan mijn voeten. Ha. Ha.

Zo zei ik toen.

De Bruid

Hoe zou ik ooit iets kunnen eisen, vragen wanneer ik enkel en alleen maar tot geven, bloemen geven, mij gedrongen voel zoals de bloeiende kembang Soka, ondanks haar gebroken takje.

The Jamu Vendor In The Angkot

She is so lovely as a flower, sitting silently in a corner of the Angkot (Public Car). 

For the first time I regretted as I lost this chance. I’m almost always slow in deciding something. It’s more easy to do things in your mind.

I could but I didn’t buy me a cup of jamu in the car. It’s so cheap and she could keep the change and be happy to take an unexpected extra earning home.

The Pig And The Pearls

The pig: “What do you want my opinion for, you haughty man? Should I like the pearls you like?

I am the best as I am. I would never want to change myself and be like you. Ha. Ha.”

And I remember my naughty cat lying above on TV yawning, playfully, teasing with her paws the performance of Beethoven’s 9th symphony beneath her.

 

I Don’t Repent

Should I repent, blame my blunders, foolishness, of things of which I’m ashamed of afterwards, where as I did it with good, my best intent?

I couldn’t do it better at that time, neither do it better, even in another life.

I only regretted, am I ashamed of, when I hadn’t the courage to save, rescue a dog that was “trapped” in a kali, chased, stoned by young boys from the bank,

take home, take care of a thrown away, poor, weak crying, dirty doggie in a waste cart, ...

Don’t Humiliate Yourself

Never say I am “payah”, “bodoh”.

Do you know why?

Why?  You are sublime as you always can  learn whatever you want.

It’s the Creator who created you so, who is sublime, magnificent, great.