Friday, November 28, 2008

Teasing, A Way Of Showing Friendship, Love

Teasing, A Way Of Showing Friendship, Love

“It’s rude, impolite, if you wriggle and free yourself when I want to embrace and kiss you by force” said mother to her little child.

“This is for paying off my moral debt” said her lover as he handed her flowers.

“Why is this rice so bitter?” said he timidly to his wife starting the peace treaty to end the ‘cold war’. Then his laughter which he had kept suppressed, straining all his efforts, broke out as water gushing from a broken dam.
“Sure. As bitter as is your heart,” said she teasing him in return.
So peace was restored.

“Oh, I forgot something.”
“What did you forget, you scoundrel?” she asked.
“Kiss you.”

Teasing, without hurting, humiliating, is a subtle way of showing warm friendship, love.

June 2008




Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Why? Ask Pardon To Me!

Why? Ask Pardon To Me!

There was a man in the Philippines who was sentenced to death for violating a girl. He had asked clemency to president Estrada. People prayed for him and many people abroad sent a petition for mercy.

I met the girl in my dream who said: “Why ask mercy, pardon to the President, to God? Why not ask me? I have the right to pardon him, he, who has tortured, threatened, forced, soiled me. They haven’t suffered the affront.”

Perhaps to ask for her pardon, mercy would be even worse than the death sentence, I thought.

And I imagined him if he were granted to ask mercy from her, he would kneel before her and say: “I am here not to ask pardon from you but to say that I really deserved this death penalty.”

She was cold, kept silent and he went away.

Meanwhile she secretly did send a letter to the authorities to free him on the moment of his execution.

Wow, he never would, ever could repay her greatness as long as life, as I created them in my mind.

July 2000

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Pak Arif's Birthday Celebration

Pak Arif’s Birthday Celebration

Pak Arif’s children are grown-ups. They all have a car, but pak Arif walks, bicycles, takes the bus or train. “Sure, old-fashioned, unwise me” he said. They want to gladden him by taking him to a first rate restaurant, or provide the means for him to travel abroad as his birthday present.

“Well, just in the neighborhood of Jakarta are many beautiful spots.” He mused. “Jurangmangu, Kampung Melayu in Tangerang, Tanjung Pasir, Cinangka, Kapuk, Serpong, Rumpin-Leuwiliang, Ciater, Cibubur, Wanaherang, … still so clear, so live, so beautiful in his mind’s eye but a lot is now gone, lost. Wow how delightful it was to be welcomed by a girl with a branch of red colored rambutan just taken from the tree after being tired, running through Cilenggang village, which he did not eat but took home to decorate the dining table. He remembered an unexpected kiss of Upi, as his birthday present some 50 years ago. That was a present!!!!”

It was his dream that some day he would tour whole Jawa from village to village on a bike or walk, take an angkot (public car), have a lodging in a county inn, or sleep on a tapang (low wooden sitting table) in a warong (village shop), it would be fine if he could visit the other islands as well, or with his grandchildren walk in the river Cisadane, - not along - with his grandchildren from Rumpin to Leuwiliang. No, not touring abroad. It’s a pity he couldn’t take Upi, his wife to accompany him as it would be too tiring for her.

“What does dad like?” they asked their mother.

“Just give him a pair of sandals as his old are almost worn out,” said she. “When he got a fine Swiss watch, he didn’t wear it. At last he returned the watch as he preferred his old cheap digital watch. ‘No one would like to steal or rob it, besides, it can be used as a ringing bell to wake me up, a stopwatch and calendar,’ he reasoned.”

“Or present him some bags of earth to heighten his garden, eh, I mean his forest or his little plot of ‘land conservation’, since it’s free for every plant or creature who would like to visit, settle there while his forest is just 3 x 7 m. There is the waringin, flamboyant, belimbing, which he rescued, rambutan, nangka, mahoni, saga, and many others, I don’t know their names. He took weeds from his far trips home on a bus and planted it there. He doesn’t buy any plant, flowers, except a yang liu, a kind of willow. Not to say about the ferns.”

“There are two ponds he made himself. ‘I’m not accomplished in the art of landscaping. Let Nature be the artist he said.’ He has fresh water shrimps, fishes from the river, lakes, sawahs (rice fields), marshes, saved from being poisoned or drought. The water plants he took from the rice fields. There’s the beunteur, sepat, cupang, cenang-cenang, julung-julung, ikan macan (tiger fish) which he saved when it was still small and harmless, but forced to free it again in the Ciliwung river in front of the Istiqlal Mosque, as it preyed on the other fishes as it grows bigger, together with snails from the Bogor Botanic Garden which he had hatched, that razed his water plants. ‘you should watch them cautiously, live, - not see them in pictures or in aquariums - as they live vigilant in their natural surroundings,’ he advised.”

“He never cleaned his ponds, yet the water was very clear, he didn’t feed his fishes, during a draught he filled his ponds and he made a device to prevent his ponds from overflowing during rain, yet happy in the rain some fishes, especially the cenang-cenang jump out of his ponds.

“Besides he had a sawah frog caught when still very small who became an excellent jumper. He hides, sits on a wild water lily leaf till one day he croaks and reminds him of the sawah, the village. There also were fresh water crabs, but they disappeared. Father loves to see his residents that like to live or visit his garden, happy. There was a giant dragonfly visiting his pond. Its pupae was very fearsome to look at. It was as a miniature dragon and very ferocious. There was once a beautiful colored spider spreading its net above the pond. Little bats also visited and birds warble and had their nests in the waringin. The ‘kruidje roer me niet’ (touch-me-not weed) which he planted at the side of his pond was growing like a beautiful mini tree descending its branches into the pond. He loves, enjoyed his forest and ponds and learns what nature taught him: ‘the strong is slowly killing the weak’.”

“There too his dogs were buried” said mother.

Happy, warm, close together with his children and grandchildren, pak Arif celebrated his birthday with roasting, eating sate in the garden. Mmmmm. Breathing the barbequed smell awakens the appetite. There after, roast corn, drink sekoteng (gingerly drink). The moon and the stars were shining quietly, there was a cool breeze, the sound of a Sunda gamelan on a cassette. Happy with his new pair of sandals, with the earth and compost for his plants, “who still wants to be persuaded to go abroad or go to a restaurant as his birth day present? Ha, ha, ha.” So said pak Arif to his wife before going to bed.

From Suara Karya, March 15, 1996

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Opa Johan's E Mail To His Grandchildren 5

Opa Johan’s E Mail To His Grandchildren 5

Well, leave the great, famous poets, painters, composers, scientists, heroes, … at home. Let hear what they said, see what they painted, hear what they composed, asserted, they did, instead of just quoting, citing dry, empty, stupid stuff as general knowledge and burden your brains with their names or their works, dates, residence, … to impress people as a cultured, intelligent person.

Just think, there are thousands of composers. Mozart himself composed more than thousand works. You don’t know Mozart just by knowing, remembering his name or his K.V.’s. You know Mozart by listening, hear him “speak” through his pieces even though only one but you enjoyed, loved it. Even shouldn’t you know his name or the title of the work, or did not know who he was. In an Encyclopedia you can find, learn a lot about him but you still know nothing about him, unless you ever have heard a piece of him which you really like and think it’s beautiful. Did you know this?

May 2008





Friday, November 21, 2008

Remember, This Is "Leisurely Reading"

Remember, This Is “Leisurely Reading”

I have no claim, pretensions to be accomplished in world issues, scientific, political matters, to write perfect English, to be accurate, complete, … “Leisurely Reading” is some what of a common, plain man doing his chores in his daily outfit, in shorts, without a shirt, barefoot, or on slippers, sitting on the stairs or on the floor, ground or a low stool among the plants, living leisurely with a sea of time for himself.

I work on my home page unhurriedly. Certainly not excellent as done by a professional publisher as I’m doing it my self as a layman, for I have not the means nor the necessary skill or knowledge.

My writings yet remain the same, published, unpublished, praised or blamed, today or tomorrow.

Valuations fall and rise.

November 2008








Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The Little Puppy

The Little Puppy

There was a fluffy puppy playing so lively with a little round fruit at the roadside. Every time it jumped, preyed on its plaything or running around it. It was as though seeing a naughty half naked little street boy who knows how to enjoy himself.

When little girl lured, tempted, caught him and held it in her arms, it wriggled, wrestled to free himself, wagging its tail and ran happily, excitedly around her, as though to say that it doesn’t deserve to be fondled, granted such a love, an honor from her.

What will come of this little nobody’s puppy on the street I thought. But I didn’t allow little girl to take him home, as she would leave the care of it to others.

Days thereafter, we looked for him, but we didn’t see him, and he stayed away until one day someone told us that he was killed in a car accident.

Then we missed him.

1975





Sunday, November 16, 2008

Pigeons' Woe And Happiness

Pigeons’ Woe And Happiness

And there were the pigeons of the boys that should be given away or sold as they had too many of them.

Bruintje - I call him so because he was brown -, maybe was ten times sold but always returned home. And every time he came back happily, I felt a conscience prick, a pain in my heart.

At last I forbade the boys to give them away, yet he and its mate were stolen. They had pulled out their strong wing feathers, but both returned with just half grown feather wings.

I turned to “family planning”. But they still may have one egg hatched once a year. What a happy event it was for the parent birds. It was as though they were young again with their baby chick while they were in old age already. Both were still passionately in love as the first time. Even when his wife was so old that she stumbled and couldn’t fly anymore, Bruintje was still running after her. We call it giring (passionately in love). Everyday was a wedding celebration, not only once as in a man’s life time.

1969






Friday, November 14, 2008

Wrong Again!

Wrong Again!

Little girl was drawing with crayon. Wrong, wiped with a darker color. Wrong again, another color on it, wrong again. In her anger she swept through her picture with black. Failed, she thought, but it was hanged on the wall in the class room as good, valuable by her drawing teacher.

1969




Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Psalm Of David Of This Age 2

Psalm Of David Of This Age 2

He is the Almighty. His Word is written, imprinted, engraved, all over and around us.

He doesn’t need my, our praises. He doesn’t need our aid, our assistance to preach His Words. Who can pride, qualify himself to be his representative? He is anywhere, not only in Churches, in Cathedrals, Mosques, Temples. His community includes all living and is not limited to those only who believe in Him, for as long as time.

He is that created, who regulated the universe without any effort.

Without being taught, at the very moment of happiness, each one, every being knows, how to sing, how to praise. At the very moment of death in death agony, everyone, every creature knows how to pray.

He is God I created after my own image.

1973





Monday, November 10, 2008

The Sun Is Shining Again

The Sun Is Shining Again

Little girl would take a walk with her parents, but she prayed to wait for her to finish seeing the film Kimba, the white lion.

“Go immediately or leave her at home.” her older brothers angrily snarled. It was as though a happy little bird was shot. She got tears in her eyes, her heart bled.

Father and mother for all that still waited for her and after having seen the film they went out together.
There was a shy, happy laugh on her face more than all the weariness of waiting.

After the rain it’s wonderful to see the sun’s peeping and shining again. Sure, this sun is anywhere around them.

1969




Sunday, November 9, 2008

You Blockhead

You Blockhead

Little girl said affectionately to her father who prepared her milk: “the milk isn’t sweet enough, you blockheeead” stressing on the word blockhead. How wonderful it was. It was much warmer than hear her say “dear father”. There was no one who ever had the courage to say so to him.

1969





Thursday, November 6, 2008

What A Vitality

What A Vitality

There was a little happy tree almost cut down. How laughable, ridicules or better, what a pitiable sight. What had it not “bled”, endured the offense, indignity. But out of what was still left, new branches sprouted and from these, again new branches and it was a fine, happy little tree again.

And there was the fighting cock who was hit in his eye – they had let him fight – and that immense loss of an eye, and all the pain and suffering, he bore without complaint, lament for days with strength and dignity. Is there anything wrong with the fighting nature of cocks and crickets?

And there, she saw the sun. She managed, succeeded to grow up through all the greenery and she flourishes, rejoiced, shines that unwanted “weed”.

And there are the poor, as weed, - not planted in a flower pot, or in a garden - but along the road-, rail-side, along a ditch, in barren environments, ruins, cavities of a wall. Remember, this is Jakarta. They’re very tough, strong as forged by fierce hardships. They certainly are also blessed with the Creator’s kiss.

1977





Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Am I Blind?

Am I Blind?

Little girl, her eye was hurt against something and ran with fear to mother. “Am I blind?” looked up, lifting her little face with wide opened eyes close to mother’s. A precious souvenir unexpected offered, not ever to miss this chance, pressed a kiss on it and joyfully the cherub played, ran, frolicked and frisked again.

1969




Sunday, November 2, 2008

Handle One Man Harder Than A Hundred Oxen

Handle One Man Harder Than A Hundred Oxen

According to my granddad, handle one man is harder than a hundred oxen. Sure, every man wants to be independent, be his own. He doesn’t like to obey, to be ruled, ordered, commanded to do this, do that, blamed, scolded, he so hates, except he is paid or forced. That’s his nature. So don’t do what you don’t like, what you hate, to others especially to the weak, the old, children. That’s the saying but it’s so very natural and without the saying, anybody would have found it.

October 2008