Pak Arif's Musings
Oh, what a lot I’ve enjoyed in life but what I could tell, write down is so small, still less about what, how, I really enjoyed, felt about it.
I also endured a lot of miseries, unhappiness, disappointments, sorrow, distress. I’ve forgiven all my sins, trespasses, faults, misbehavior, … I don’t repent, don’t chide, blame myself anymore for what I’d done before, I’m not ashamed of my foolishness, blunders, …. I wont apologize, wont ask forgiveness and whosoever wants to get even with me for wrongs, offenses do so without any scruples.
As I'm over 80 by now, have I become more courageous.
I owe responsibility to no one, anyone, not God except myself.
I am no one's master, teacher and have no master, teacher to obey, not even God, except willingly.
Should I hide this in order for you to love or like me? That's my philosophy.
So said pak Arif to me.
Aren't you shocked, scared with such irreverent thoughts? I'm myself scared to scare you with such thoughts. Could you still like, love me, rather then leave me were you my faithful "liker"?
Oh, what a lot I’ve enjoyed in life but what I could tell, write down is so small, still less about what, how, I really enjoyed, felt about it.
I also endured a lot of miseries, unhappiness, disappointments, sorrow, distress. I’ve forgiven all my sins, trespasses, faults, misbehavior, … I don’t repent, don’t chide, blame myself anymore for what I’d done before, I’m not ashamed of my foolishness, blunders, …. I wont apologize, wont ask forgiveness and whosoever wants to get even with me for wrongs, offenses do so without any scruples.
As I'm over 80 by now, have I become more courageous.
I owe responsibility to no one, anyone, not God except myself.
I am no one's master, teacher and have no master, teacher to obey, not even God, except willingly.
Should I hide this in order for you to love or like me? That's my philosophy.
So said pak Arif to me.
Aren't you shocked, scared with such irreverent thoughts? I'm myself scared to scare you with such thoughts. Could you still like, love me, rather then leave me were you my faithful "liker"?
August 2009
February 2013
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